Thing I said I Would Never Do

You know that saying, never say never well now I’ve changed it too 99% sure I wouldn’t do certain things. I have a couple of things that I said I wouldn’t do but eventually with life it happened. I am sure there is some good ones a lot of you have and have forgotten about it! Take some time and have a good laugh because back then it was me being serious I would never do these things.

• I would never have children. Oh hello, I have a 16 old month baby boy! 
• I would never make “unreasonable decisions” for a guy. Well.... that happened. 
• I would never have the time or the courage to travel alone. By the age of 16 I did and it wasn’t scary at all. 
• I would never be able to face my fears. I did and with the help of my family and friends. 
• I would never be the girl who wear sweats or messy buns out in public. Haha that’s me now 365 days, 24/7. 
• I would never forgive people. I don’t know if it’s with time or experiences but eventually you learn to let go of the anger and move on. 

Dear Future Me (Parent Letter)

This week, we had back to school functions for my little brother’s last year in high school. It was a non stop week that I had to tell myself to stop and take it all in. It made me really have thoughts about things that I don’t want to forget when my son is older. So dear me as a parent don’t forget to get involved in school. The only way to make sure he is successful, is that I am aware of his environment not just from home but school. Please remember that meeting new people is nerve wrecking. Specifically, adults with an authority can be seen scary concept for them. All the tips and advice from other parent’s should be welcoming but at the end of the day you are the parent and know your child best. My goals for myself should not be my child’s goals. Being a parent not only means being blessed to care for a beautiful soul but to give him all the tools for the best life. No one’s perfect which means I have to practice with him certain things more if it’s learning a new concept from school, a new hobby or sports. There is no parent book to raising a child but I do know something my parents always have shown me actions to strive for more and not put myself as a limit. 

Your Time is UP!

My whole week has felt like I’m in a test room with an hour left to finish more than half of the exam.  Normally the last week of the month, things pile up or time is up for those lovely items I haven’t cross off my to do list. It’s not that it’s not stressing, but I try not to let it get to me as it use too back in the days. Mainly, because I have a little sponge that mimics my behavior or any type of mood of that day. I keep thinking why does it feel time goes by faster as I keep getting older. Does anyone feel like that? I have asked my mom how did she do it back in the days and she simply stated, “I don’t know, I took it day by day” with the help of everyone too. And it’s true it takes a village, support, encouragement, understanding, and love from family and friends. Do you know how hard was to believe or feel like I would have that in life? But everyone has shown me with actions and even thought I can’t stop time I never ever felt this lucky everyone has spent their time to be with us. 

Why?

I started this blog, in the summer of 2011 as an assignment for one of courses in fashion. We had to create our own blogspot and post about anything and everything that we were experiencing during our travels. It wasn’t that difficult since it was era of myspace and facebook. I left it alone after I got home, I wouldn’t be able to tell you why, maybe I felt there was nothing interesting to write about anymore. That was my first mistake, because I’ve always been that type of person that can’t post a picture without it’s LONG chapter about something. I wanted to start writing blogs last year but there was no motivation. Then I had my son, boy did everything change in my world. And this summer my son already had his nap time scheduled around noon to three at first I would take naps with him because I would do all my things from work at night. However, that changed since I was caught up with things and had my routine set. I wasn’t about to sleep all three hours and I couldn’t move because he nurses as he is taking his nap. And so it came to me, why don’t I set two days of the week to write about anything that’s on my mind that week. I’m thinking of it being more structure to this whole blogging and have categories, but for the time being it’s my space to “journal” for this new chapter in my life. Let’s see how this journey from here to there goes. ✌🏽

Just Feel All The Feelings!

As a new mommy everyone made it seem it was okay my hormones were out of whack. I would cry for the smallest thing, and to be honest I don’t really cry specially how it has been lately. I’ve always been too blunt and hurtful when it comes to “communicating my feelings” that it would throw off the person to the edge. But my thoughts lately on how our society is trying to really change and make everyone open their eyes has me just feeling all sort of things. I’ve learned it’s okay to realize how messed up the world we live is in. It’s okay to be afraid of the directions our government is heading toward. And it’s okay to cry when families are trying to keep it together by simply putting a meal on the table. My hope is I don’t stop learning and educating myself because guess who is a little sponge observing me. Yes, my son, I want to have the ability to keep moving forward, to do more, make an impact on myself and those around me. Not just for myself but more so for my son to not give up doing the right thing even when it’s only him. Everything I’ve done was because my parents gave me the tools and ability to move forward. Everything my son will do is because I will give him compassion, love, and eagerness to always do better and be better. I need to make my goals more visual, maybe a vision board or a chart to ensure I’m taking the necessary steps to reach my goals. What are your goals before this year ends? I don’t think it needs to be a long list even one or two help keep us on track! Hope everyone is winning today and getting things done.

Help! I need a Skin Care Routine

Even before I had my son, there was never a ritual skin care routine I had in place. But with age and hormones all over the place, things do really need to change. Sure, I get my painful pimple or red blemishes here and there but I'm grateful I don't have to constantly worry about my skin. Even though I make sure I wash my face after applying makeup or put my face masks once a week it's not helping my skin as much anymore. My son tends to touch my face all the time and with all these heatwaves lately my skin is at another level. I have read several blog posts about their skin routine but it seems too much and too much money to spend for something that might not work. I will try to see if there is any hacks I can do for the months coming up and I will be sharing them here. Some things that do help me for the time meaning are the following items I have purchased and repurchased because they keep me descent to look at! Let's hope they help this month for all the events we have planned. I keep seeing new Sephora collection masks, maybe I will give those a try. 

Tone it up Beach Clay ( it was limited edition)

I normally put it on before taking a night shower because it's much easier to take off due to the texture. 

Amazon! Eye Patch

I want to say it does last me about a month but you can do add on bundles to save $$. 

Amazon! Lip Scrub

If I were to use it daily it would help me a lot more but I use it once a week. 

Back to School -Story Time

Let's be honest here my summers was mostly fun, on the go, tiring, and adventures since I could remember. Fast forward to back to school time, it was dreadful for me, Elementary I never really understood how certain educators got away with half the things they did. Oh boy middle school was a trip, we did have uniforms but somehow I still made those uncomfortable for myself. I think around this time I was really wishing I had an older sibling because I knew NOTHING. Not only with my education did it feel like I was trying to catch up every single day but as a teenager I completely went through those phases. Sure, I worked hard to get descent grades but it was always me trying to figure out the concept being taught that day. Most of my childhood I always had two hard working, go getter's, determined, set goal, intelligent parents who decided from really early on that their past mistakes were not going to determine their future. With that being said, they were around, yes,  but they were on a journey ,trying to figure things out as well. My godmother has always been the type of person that makes you laugh especially if you are gloomy. But she remained in the old ways, school to her wasn't something that was "important" but learning certain values or things to do for yourself as a girl would come more into play as you grew older. The summer of high school, my school was still not open since it was still under construction. I went to summer school near by and that's when I learned there is a lot of evil human beings. Not in the school, but I remember one time we had early dismissal so two of my friends and myself voted to just walk home it wasn't that far anyways. Oh man was that a mistake, we got followed by two creepy, evil, and horrible men, we hid for awhile and when we got a chance we ran all the way to our homes. Let me tell you from that day forward, I never once walked home I rather wait for my mom or anyone that was picking me up an hour than go through that again. The hard part of high school was all these things being taught to us were interesting but my brain for whatever reason refused to simply understand it. I always heard knowledge is powerful and yes it is but not because you are a know it all but because NO ONE can take that away from you ever. If you put in your all to learn something and understand it then it's up to you how to test it in real life. Anyways with that being said, I completely understand the why do we have to go school mood, but trust me push through it because it is all worth it. I remember my dad always saying, I want you go to school and finish your education because I want you to have the time to spend with your children when you are older. Guess what, I might of not done exactly everything like I planned but I do get to raise my son and spend every day with him. I now tell my brother (he is starting his senior year of high school) you need to go beyond what you think you are capable because there is a whole generation that depends on intelligent and kind human souls like you to make sure there is a future.